Welcome to my humble little blog. This is my first time blogging, and I was nervous about it. Then I realized it’s kind of like public journalling, which should make me more nervous, but the things I journal about are generally things that, in the past, I would have hidden. The whole meaning behind this blog, behind this website, behind my life, is to stop hiding. And so, I will share my thoughts, ideas, and experiences with mental health every week. Or maybe twice a week, I haven’t quite figured that out yet.
Until then, here are some thoughts to ponder...
At the moment, I am nearing the end of my second year of college. Originally, I had planned to finish the entire degree in four years, and then do whatever you’re supposed to do after that. Recently, I decided that I shall take a year off and go travelling to satiate my yearning for adventure. This change in plans is unlike my type A self… but it is very much like the self who I find to be right now. I guess this is type B? I don’t know… What I do know, is that about a year ago, I was driven by an intense need to always be doing something. It didn’t matter what, it just had to be something. I’m not sure what changed, or if there even was a change, but gradually, I have lost touch with that type A chick. Lately, I’ve been doing more sitting. More thinking. More reading. Less doing. More nothing. And I love it. I haven’t always loved it… for a long time I felt guilty. But then a realized a few things that I’ll share with you:
Let yourself be where you are in life and be okay with it. Being "lazy" makes me happy right now. Just because I'm not how I used to be, I am still moving forward. Never stop moving forward. But we can sure as hell slow down. We have time. If I wasn't happy right now, I'd change something. And when I find something that is causing me useless grief, I change it. And learning that this is okay, is the thing that has made me the happiest I’ve been in as long as I can remember. "Do what you love" for real, but in the moment. Ideally, I’d be travelling the world right now, but I’m just hanging out until then. It's okay. I'm sounding like those people who actually figure their lives out and have real, sound advice for others. But I kind of am. Even though I have so much more to learn. About this existence; about being human; about living this life. I want to get better at living life, and loving it.
I’m not giving any thoughts on EDs right now, because I’m not in the best place on that front and I don't want to trigger. But I am doing well otherwise, so I will celebrate that.
As #BellLetsTalk day is nearing it’s end (but it’s not over, so go hashtag some more before midnight!), I thought I’d offer some simple advice on what has really helped me over the past few months. It is customary for me to sink into somewhat of a depression during the winter months. This year, I was able to avoid it, and I attribute this victory to these simple things:
1. Make your bed (every day!)… It helps to feel like you’ve accomplished something early in the morning, it doesn’t take long, and helps you feel more organized. Make it a habit, and stick to it.
2. Take your meds… This one doesn’t need much explanation. Staying on track with whatever kind of medication you are on (if any), whether it be for a mental illness, physical illness, or for wellness, is important for continuity of wellbeing.
3. Buy/rent a SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) lamp. They simulate sunlight, and aren’t too pricy (I got mine for ~$100). Philips has some good ones, and there are tons on kijiji, Amazon etc. I was sceptical at first too, but the 30 minutes of having a bright light shone at my face is undoubtedly helping with my mood. If you can’t afford to buy one, lots of pharmacies will rent them by the month!
4. Spend more time with your family. Or your friends. Or people you love. Or all of those. It helps.
That’s all I have for today. Thank you for reading as I work out the kinks!
Take care of yourself.
You are an extraordinary force of nature and are more important than you know.
Keep on keeping on,